It's been quite a few days since I last posted, though I did type a post on Friday. I was having a bad day at work, and I started typing my post during my lunch...
by the time I got around to saving the post, it had timed out and the post was lost. I was already frustrated with the day and did not have the mental strength to address it a second time.
Yesterday, things spiraled in a downward motion; work was such that I packed all of my personal belongings and took them home. I was so prepared never to step foot in the office again, but after talking to my husband last night, I decided I would come back today.
How am I feeling today? I don't think I will ever feel about my job the way that I did when I started. I am disappointed and unhappy. Even as I type this post I am uncertain whether or not I will be here in a week. Will I get fired? Will I quit? Only time can answer either. What I do know right now, is no matter what path I chose it will not end here.
For the first time in years, I cried about something work-related; I can't work like that. I have been so stressed these past two days that I've eaten the equivalent of 1.5 sandwiches total, the stress is also causing me physical pain in my neck and head.
I know that it is time to make a change, the question is to what? Do I find another full-time job? Do I find a part-time job and focus on my web and print design part-time? Do I focus on my web and print design full-time? Lots of questions, no easy answers.
The only thing I know for sure is that it is time.,