Today, while at work, I came to the realization that things have changed. I've reached a crossroads.
While most of the drama has outwardly begun to settle, my inner turmoils continue to boil. I can no longer trust that what they say is what they mean. I don't wish to share any part of my personal self at work; for me, it has become JUST A JOB. Well, to be honest with myself, it's never been more than just a job-- but up until recently, I did think more highly of some of the people I work with. A few things that I truly value are authenticity and integrity, not perfection, but an honest attempt at realistic expression. What I got was speculation and catty dialogue, followed by accusations instead of inquiries. I am far from perfect, but I like who I am and what I am capable of doing and becoming. If that is not enough, so be it.
Life goes on and so will I.,